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LIVING OR DEAD. BY HUGH CONWAY. CHAPTER VI. It must have been about a fortnight after I had made Estmere's acquaintance, before wo had cemented our friendship, that I was lingering over my breakfast in Albemarle-street. I was growing quite a connoisseur in breakfasts by now. It is al very well to talk about the country, but my expe- rience is that you can get newer milk, richer cream fresher eggs, nicer butter, and altogether more palatable things in the West End of London than anywhere else-if you like to pay for them. The best of everything goes to the Metropolis, and the relish with which you eat the boasted productions of the country is due more to the fresh air than to their own inherent virtues. I am certainly country- bred, so have a right to speak on the subject. I was lingering over my breakfast, sipping my cup of tea and thinking of a cigarette, but now and again looking at a letter which lay before me —a letter which had filled me with unqualified amazement. To understand my feelings you must read it with me. My dear Philip,—Ailments are so unusual with me that you will be surprised to hear I have been far from well lately-indeed, I was obliged to see the doctor. But you will not be surprised at hearing his opinion that change of scene and mode of life was the only treatment he could advise, for my ailments have been mental. He must have been right, for I began at once to long for a sight of other lands again. Perhaps I am beginning to feel somewhat like you felt before you went to school. Perhaps I am growing wiser; any way, I have resolved to follow the doctor's course, and travel for a while. I think I shall go round the world. I shall start for New Ycrk on Wednesday next. Will you meet me in Liverpool to say good. bye ? I shall be at the Adelphi Hotel on Monday. —Yours affectionately, "NoaitJs." I think the first thing I did when I clearly un- derstood the wonderful intelligence conveyed in the letter was to laugh aloud. The absurdity of the situation struck me with irresistible force. A man who, for nearly twenty years, had not been more than ten miles from his secluded home, all at once taking it into his head to circumnavigate the globe. To say the least of it, it was running from one extreme to the other. I was both glad and sorry. I was glad that he at last thought fit to emerge from his retirement, but sorry, and even alarmed, that mental ailments should have neces- sitated such a course. For some time past I had dreaded whether such a melancholy existence as my father's must not, sooner or later, show its effect upon his mind. Still, if evil was to be ap. prehended, I felt the step he was going to take was the right one to escape it. I was sorry to think of such a long separation, for I read between the lines of his letter, and knew he had not the slightest in- tention of asking me to accompany him. I deter- mined to suggest it. although I felt the suggestion would not be entertained. Had he wished for my companionship he would have given me more time than a few days to prepare for a journey of such a duration. No, it was clear he meant to go alone, and perhaps it would be two years before I saw him again. I thought it was well to consult Mr. Orace on the subject of such a surprising commu- nication, so after breakfast I walked across to Bed. ford-row. Good morning, Mr. Philip," said the old gentle- man as I entered his office. You are the very man I was just thinking about." Then vou have heard from my father, Mr. Grace ?" I have heard from your father, as you say." He talks of taking a long journey, he tells me." Yes, a long journey—indeed, a protracted Journey. I am glad to hear it. I hope he may return cured in more ways than one." Does he say whether he wishes me to go with him ?" He does not say so, but I should be inclined to think, or rather I gather from his letter, he does not: There is a certain paragraph referring to you which I can only read in one way." He is going quite alone (tI '• Quite alone," said Mr. Grace, in his most per. spicacious manner. But in saying alone I do not mean that he will be the only passenger in steam boats or railway trams. I mean he will be unaccompanied by friend or relative." nas ne any friend or relative except me?" I asked, sadly. "I think not, or none he cares for. But you will « 0 Liverpool to-morrow, I suppose ?" Yes, of course I shall." r I Wtlnt to Liverpool as arranged and met my father; He was looking thin and worn—so ill, in- eea that I begged earnestly to be allowed to ^company him. He refused me kindly but I shall be away nearly two years," he said, "years you might always look back upon as wasted if you left London and your future career now. Besides, I wish to go alone. I am trying a physical and psychological experiment, Philip. If it succeeds I shall upon my return live once more in the world. Then we shall be more together, and perhaps better friends." His manner had never been so affectionate since that evening when I found the solitude of my younger days greater than I could bear. I felt my eyes grow dim. "Oh, that it may be so I" I cried. "That you will come back and take your true place among men—I see so few to compare with you, father." I spoke the truth. My father would have been a ttian of mark in any circle. I was learned enough to appreciate his great knowledge and scholarly acquirements—to measure them by my own standard and know how they excelled, I could e see, as none could fail to see, the well-bred, refined gentleman in every feature, line, and movement, He was young yet, and I hoped that the rest of his life might not be wasted. I felt the sinfulness of a man of his stamp burying his talents as lie had hitherto done. He smiled at the boyish warmth of my compli- ment. II Well, we shall see, Philip, what time and change will do. Old dreams and ambitions may he revived; old sorrows at last forgotten; old Illaniseven lived down; old love and old hate anished. If not, there is always Turwood to re- turn to." toii kefare y°u g°>" I faltered, will you not' i me something about yourself i I am a man now and could understand, and you are going harm u 80 l°n!?—80 far. If anything should know now?"1 never^now more about you than I I trembled at my presumption, but he was not offended. 11 Mr. Grace has papers which will tell yon all th« K in the event of my death. By- «ie-bye, I have given him full instructions to fur- rnsh you with all you need. I trust you, Philip, Pnii 101 k*ve aa you like and how you will. vnu°W ^our chosen profession if it suits you, but j u maY as well know it is not absolutely neces- dp ^ou work. On my return we will cme about your future. JNow, good-bye." I Aj7sav<r him on board the mighty Cunard steamer, fp rVe 'ast adieu, then returned to London, eiing very miserable and lonely." What would appen before we met again His movements were quite uncertain. He pro- raised to write, and told me to send letters to tain places on the chance of his-getting them, of unfettered by any hid down course I cnuM^ ^here hig spirit moved him to go, so might be d*Li KP .feelinS ifc was possible that I to my happiness. I swrcely know how to put into *ords the affection I began to feel for thw brieht hoy, this child of the sun," as I playfully caUed hi01. Such feelings between me are rlue; very young schoolboys at times experience them, but ^hen the struggle for success and self-advance- ment has commenced there are few to whom it is iven to feel that another man's success gives teater pleasure and happiness than one's own- .hat his failure is more bitter than any miscarriage your own schemes and ambitions. Yet this was low I felt with Valentine. I must confess, had it ?een necessary, I would have sought and schemed o win his love as I might that of a woman. For- .unately, such a course was not needed—he met me llf way. His friendship, and soon hIS love, were raV*an<^ foolish as I knew my weakness was, I Meed to know I was not alone in it. Confidence, thoughts, ambitions, and what cares we Qllgb have were joint property; or so I was glad CO believe. Was » strange character, and its study was hient a? Unfaiiing source of pleasure and amuse- childliir ?ome things his simplicity was almost 6hrewdn« 1D- °thers he displayed an amount of sess Th« was hai'd to imagine he could pos- deck his h me Pe?uliarity which led him to be- apnarel with rinSs inclined him to gay Estmere si!?.8arments 1 daied not have worn clad If extrava bo -aost ProPei'ly and fittingly h a& both lazy and bard-"Vorking. He would work hard at the drud-ory of W. art. but for days and u,'f tlons were not to be forced he aaid s^ceed as lately Sw t i! Prefdlct- He was delibe- art a8,,LP ifession- H° rented a h°ur^w1?h?-elaea%Wi! i,- 8peat pleasant in the h» wa.tching him work when he was other fil™our'81ttinS aQdbatting at our ease at showed •„HlS 8ketches ma°8 of doors ,*hat »0K?erabla P°wf7tha Question was, like? hu greater and finished painting be hi»PrfJ;c tlm«8 he was hopeful and satisfied with °f hisn s, at times discontented and disparaging It e?0rts. I gave him what praise I could. carr he knew it was partial, so did deapo,/ the conviction he wanted. Yet Estmere's an IM ene asraerrierand more amusing than J One man's high spirits. ti lae even-,after what he considered an un- eta, day, he was consoling himself with my sympathy and soothing his spirits by playing the music he loved best on my piano, I sat listening and smoking my cigar in great contentment, for Estmere's performances were well worth listening to. By-and-by he finished up a composition which I knew was his own, with a great bang on the notes, closed the piano, and wheeled round to me. "I almost wonder you never thought of music as a road to fame and fortune," I remarks 1. But I did once. Some years ago I almost deter- mined to go to Leipsic and study for three years. Indeed, to tell the truth, I think I tossed up which it should be, music or painting." Happy man to be able to choose between the two!—and happier in being rich enough to be in- dependent of either." But I am not rich—what gave you that idea?" I think Vigor must have conveyed it some- how." Well, you bad better get it conveyed away again. My mother has a fair income now, but only a life interest-at her death it nearly all goes from me. You don't know my mother, Philip, but you shall soon." I thanked him. She is away now," he said. She went to Mal- vern about ten days ago-I am afraid she will not return for six weeks. Then you must come and see her. You will like my mother, and I think she will like you. Dark, grave-looking fellows like you suit her." You are very fond of her ?" I asked. Valentine laughed his pleasantest laugh. "Fond of her is not the word. You see, we are alone, and everything to each other. I ought to be with her now, but she would not let me come." What is she like-tell me ?" How can a son describe his mother ? To me she is the fairest and noblest of women-but any woman who loves you like she loves me must seem that. But my eulogies make you look sad. I ought to have remembered you have never known a mother. Let us talk of something less exclusive. Art, for instance. I was feeling sad, and he observed I envied him his mother as much as I did other gifts of his. So I changed the subject. The great work is not going as well as you wish ?" I said. "No; I took out my knife resolved to rip it up to-day, but I resisted the temptation." Every wise man striveth for an excellence he cannot hope to attain," I quoted, loosely. Yes, but he does not like to fail, all the same." How far high failure overleaps the bounds of low success," I continued. "Keep that second-hand wisdom to yourself, Philip, you don't know how pictures are made. If you want to see a successful artist come with me to-morrow and I will show you one." The next morning I called at Valentine's studio, and we sallied forth together to find the successful artist. After a brisk walk of half an hour we stopped at a small but respectable-looking house and inquired for Mr. Baker. I did not know the name in modern art, but was willing to take Valentine's word for its owner's merits. The artist, quite a young man, soon made his appearance. He re- ceived Valentine with affability and condescen- sion. I told you," said Valentine, that with your permission I would bring a friend some day to call on you and see you at work. Men of your standing are always glad to let beginners take what hints they can." Quite so, Mr. Estmere, quite so—no one should grudge assistance in the technical parts of art. The inspiration, of course, cannot be glven-that is the artist's sole possession." Precisely so," answered Valentine," the sacfed fire that burns in one's own grate cannot be induced to glow in another by imitation." The artist looked highly gratified. "Please follow me, gentlemen." He conducted us up a couple of flights of stairs in a very dignified manner. Estmere looked full of amusement, but 1 was puzzled where the joke lay. Mr. Baker ushered us into a large room on the top of the house. In one corner stood a large pile of now canvases, and the usual accessories of the painter's art were scattered about. Arranged in line at a short distance apart were three easels, each bearing a large canvas. Two men very much like our guide in general appearance were standing idle before them. As we entered they touched their caps respectfully to Mr. Baker, who acknowledged the salutation slightly. You are come at a good time," he said to us, I was just going to commence a fresh work." "Mr. Baker is a creator, I must tell you," explained Valentine, with a suspicion of laughter in his voice. His only sketohes are mental ones. You will be astonished at the facility of his work." I was astonished. The gifted artist, with 4 bold, free hand, drew a semblance to the outlines of mountain, trees, and lake on his virgin canvas, and in five minutes his brush and colours were in full work. The amusing part of it was that the men stationed on each side of him followed him stroke bv stroke on their canvases, and showed us the surprising spectacle of three pictures alike in every detail and colour coming into existence at once. At the rate they all painted it looked as if the pictures would be finished in a few hours. I watched them with great curiosity for a long time, until the fugleman stopped and turned to us for the meed of praise he evidently considered his due. It is very wonderful," said Valentine, gravely. He could not have chosen a better word, so I echoed it. Now let us see some finished work," said Valentine. Thereupon Mr. Baker showed us some score or two of large paintings, all fresh from the easel. All of the same class-mountains, lakes waterfalls, and trees wjth figures fishing, deer drinking, or cows reclining, to break the monotony. We thanked him for the interesting sight; but imagine my disgust when Valentine said: My friend would like to carry away a specimen of your art; which shall it be, Philip o. You must choose for me." I said rather ruefully, thinking if Mr. Baker charged me iitteen or twenty pounds for a picture I could not hang I should feel grieved I ever made his acquain- tance. "This one, then, I think," said Valentine, picking out one of the soberest productions. It is very broad, and full of atmosphere. How much, Mr. Baker?" I trembled. The painting was 48 by 36 at least. Any artist appraising his own ware must for the sake of his self-esteem ask fifty pounds for a work of such dimensions. "You have made a good choice, Mr. Estmere," said Mr. Baker. "That picture cost me much thought and work. I am under an obligation not to sell any pictures under a certain priced so I cannot say less than two guineas." The relief I experienced at this modest demand was worth all the money: I pulled the guineas out with alacrity. Shall I get it framed for you ?" asked Mr. Baker. "No, thank you," said Valentine quietly, "I don't think you need trouble to get it framed. Mr. Norris will send round for it some day." But the some day is not yet come, and I daresay my purchase went back into stock again. What do you mean by calling a fellow like that a successful artist?" I asked when we were outside the door. "A successful artist is one that makes money; he makes money. How ?" Those men turn out some fifteen pictures a week, which they sell to an enterprising dealer at thirty shillings a piece—equalling twenty-two pounds ten a week; not a bad income!" .0 Who are the two men who copy him ?" That's the joke of the matter; they are his brothers. He is the creator—the man with the sacred fire-and, of course, ranks high above them. In recognition of the immense superiority of this gifted being. the two brothers, although permitted to share the emoluments, are expected to touch their hats to him on every occasion, as a slight token of respect to his genius." How did you pick up such queer acquain- tances ?" I forget: I met him somewhere. You see, I talk to everyone, and somehow they all seem kindly disposed to me." It was true enough—Valentine Estmere talked to everybody, high or low. He troubled little what sort or condition of man it was. That strange charm of manner he possessed won the good will of everyone. As we walked along New Bond-street I saw a tall, bronzed, bearded man standing at the door of Long's-a. distinguished-looking man, although not dressed in the height of fashion. Although nearly ten years had passed since I had seen bis face, I knew him at once-it was Lord Rothweli. It was not my fault that we had not met before; I had inquired about him on my first visit to London, but he was away at the other end of the world. For several years I had repeated my inquiries whenever I was in town, but without success. He was never there at the time I was. Latterly I had given up the hope of ever seeing him—and after all I felt that I must be quite forgotten by now and cease to trouble him. He had seen me wbeen I was a boy for a couple of hours—not sufficient grounds tor expecting a welcome after long lapse of years, and I hated the slightest appearance of wishing to make grand or titled acquaintances. I had scarcely made up my mind what to do—indeed, I think I should liavs mind what to do-indeed, I think I should have passed without making myself known—when Estmsrecaught sight of him.' Jove!" he cried, there's Lord Rothweli; I h no^ know he was back!" Before I could speak he had darted from my i e and was across the road shaking hands neartily with the great traveller. I followed more leisurely. As I reached them I heard Lord Roth- well say, I. Why, Valentine, you are grown you look just the man I expected you would be so lika your mother too. I am glad to see you, my boy." Tbey were evidently old friends. Seeing me pause beside them, Lord Rothwell looked at me curiouslv- OJ A friend of yours, Valentine?" he asked courteously. I laughed, and answered before Valentine could Bpeak, YOU have forgotten me, Lord Rothwell. Don't you remember your seasick friend, Mr. Dunstable, and Mr. Stanton, and the boy who took you all ashore ia the yawl ?" What, Captain Pbilip he cried, holding out his hand. "You have grown and changed too; who could remember the boy in the whiskered man; yet I ought to have known your eyes. But," be continued, looking from Estmere to me, while a serious yet astonished look came over his face, "how is it I see you together? How long have you known each other. We both laughed at these questions. Not very long." I answered. A few weeks I should think. A mutual friend introduced me in the usual way." If there is anything vicious in his character, or anything about him that won't bear daylight, please tell me. Lord Rothwell, 80 that I can cut him in time," said Valentine, with mock gravity. "I make the same request," I added. Lord Rothwell said nothing for a few moments. Then he spoke quite seriously, as if he had been weighing proa and cons in his mind. No, I can see no reason why you should not establish a lasting friendship—you seem to sui each other. No, there is no reason against it." Thank you," said Valentine, who utterly lacked the organ of reverence. That is kind of you, and our minds are now at ease!" His lordship took the joke in good part. All right," he said, now come in and have a cigar and some champagne-all you boys want cham- pagne now. Come along." We followed him, and spent an hour chatting with him. He had only arrived In London the night before. He had been exploring the interior of Asia, and informed us his travels were over. Of course, he had a book in prospect, detailing, in amusing and instructive terms, his last experi- ences. Any way, he should be in England for a long time now, and hoped that he should see a good deal of us. When we rose to leave him, lie shook hands with Estmere—" Yes, you go now, Valentine but I want Philip to stop a little longer—I have some- thing to say to him." The new friend pushes out the old-but, never mind, I am above jealousy and Valentine nodded and left us. I felt much pleased with Lord Rotliwell's friend- liness. It was unmistakable, and the easy and natural way in which he addressed me by my Christian name showed that I was not intruding upon him when I had made myself known. He lit another cigar, and asked me many questions about myself. I told him of my inten- tion of going to the Bar. Although he seemed interested in my plans, he offered neither advice nor suggestions. And your father," he asked, at last. "Is he still living in that lonely place where I saw him?" I laughed. No, he took a fancy into his head to travel. He has just started on a voyage round the world." When does he return ?" Not for two years, I believe. Perhaps he wants to emulate you." Then I spoke of something else —thinking that my father's proceedings could not be an interesting topic to a man who had only seen him once, and that eight years ago. Have you seen Valentine's mother yet ?" he asked. Not yet. She has been at Malvern for some time. Valentine has promised to introduce me when she returns." Yes, that is right. Go and see Lady Estmere. You will find her a very pleasant friend." Valentine is passionately fond of her." You won't wonder at that when you know her." And from the tone of his voice I know that Lord Rothweli either loved Lady Estmere or had loved her; and as he sat silent for a few minutes I was building up romances, and wondering whether his years of travel were due to something of this kind. "I am going to my lawyer's now," he said, rising. You see, I make no ceremony with you. Good-bye I shall see you again soon. In a few days I shall have some quarters of my own here. Make Estmere take you to see his mother as soon as she returns, Good-bye." I wa& growing quite anxious to see Lady Estmere. I left Lord Rothweli, feeling I had made a pleasant friend and had, if I found favour in Lady Estmere's eyes another in prospect. (To be continued.)

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